In two and half months exactly, I will be on a plane flying over the Atlantic with one happy husband, four over packed suitcases and a pissed-off husky on my way to my new home in Israel.
Right now, at this exact moment I am freaking out.
During certain moments in the past few months, I have allowed myself brief periods of complete anxiety induced breakdowns. I don't have any triggers per se. I don't know when or why they occur.
Let's go back to Thursday of last week for example. I woke up on a beautiful Thursday morning, had a relatively normal day at work and the drive home was equally as uneventful. I walk into my apartment and BAM!...DH enters a firestorm.
As I am frantically tearing through the kitchen drawer for my notebook to re-check the June to-do list, simultaneously I am pacing the kitchen floor, figuring out how many blankets, winter clothes, toiletries, picture frames, books we can fit into the monstrosity of box we're shipping and coming up with a brand new entirely worthless list of items we need to purchase before we go.
Let me share a few thoughts a crazed type-A will come up with during a anxiety-induced-I'm-moving-half-way-around-the-world breakdown:
Oh no, I don't know the word for Tampax in Hebrew.
I wonder if they will let me pack stuff in the dog's crate. Aha-there is room!
Sweet baby Jesus, my hair straightener won't fit into Israeli outlets. I'm going to have to live with frizzy hair forever.
If I get to Israel on Wednesday, sleep off the jet lag on Thursday, get back on a plane on Friday then I can make it to the first Alabama football game on Saturday.
I need to go to Costco to buy 300 ibuprofen and a jumbo box of grits.
Normally, I am a perfectly rational human being, excited about the adventure that awaits and who thinks logically about this move most of the time. During these periods of sheer panic, I am not.
Today, as if it were the first time my brain realized it, I am freaking out because I can't speak Hebrew. Most days I am aware that learning a new language will take time. I usually give myself credit for taking on such a daunting task. Today, I am freaking out. Tomorrow, I am sure I will return to normal, but today...